December Update

I bring greetings and salutations to my fellow bloggers. I really wish I could bring myself to write more often than I do. Somehow I think I avoid reality if I don’t.

I’ve gotten a few inquiries into the status of my welfare, and I’m obliged to respond. I really would like to blog about something more constructive than my emotional state; which has not been great for the last month. When Cheryl reversed herself again about moving out it left me with a terrible feeling of despair, as if I was stuck with no way out.

To further complicate things, she seems to feel that our situation is at least tolerable, and that I shouldn’t have any problem staying with her for the next 3.5 years, which is when Katie will be 18. She tells me that I cannot afford to move out (oh really?) and that we need to think about our kids in all of this. Interesting perspective from the one who created the situation we are in, and who so adamantly pounded her fist onto a table saying, “This. Is. Going. To. Happen!” It would have been nice if she had been so conciliatory a year ago.

She gets drunk nightly. She smokes like a chimney. She cusses like a sailor. She smells like a lush. She has become a barfly. Her children see it, and are offended by it. Her lifelong friends no longer speak to her. She continually becomes more isolated. More and more often she spends time on a barstool filled with self pity, and monologues to whomever will give audience.

I don’t know this person anymore. I am increasingly irritated with her. I don’t like her anymore.

I’ve made it clear: we are getting divorced, and it is happening this spring. I don’t care if we are living under the same roof at the end of it all; I refuse to be married to this train wreck of a person any longer.

You know, I’d so much rather talk about Iraq, politics, or NSA wire taps.

I’m not as depressed as I was. REALLY! I am doing better. There is just a lot that I have to do, and I really just want to move on with my life. And I am.

I wish everyone who reads this blog a Merry Christmas - and a happy holiday season to those who could possibly be offended by the former wish. Oh and a happy new years too. I would also like to wish those who are offenended at the notion of a "happy" new year a "sad" new year as well. And to those who are niether happy or sad, I would like to wish them an "indifferent" new year. I hope that I have covered all of the bases in terms of holiday well wishing, or not so well wishing. If by some remote chance that any of the above has offened anyone... please see a shrink. If that suggestion offends you, then you offend me. So sue me.

Rick