Hi.... I'm Rick... Remember Me?

I've been away for a while trying to get my life back in order. Much of this has involved therapy and medication. My daughter and sons have not been handling the fallout between me and their mom very well. Katie has lost her way and has been getting into significant trouble. David has been troubled, but not as badly. Tom seems to be okay, but I know he's been troubled too.

It's so surreal to see your worst fears realized; everything you work so hard to avoid happening. And the ones you try to protect the most wind up getting hurt more than you do - and all they do is sit there and want you to love them. They begin to question the very things you taught them to be absolute. They see cracks in the foundation of their lives.

And it all happens arbitrarily... I just feel as if I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

The worst thing about all of it is that is could have been avoided.

I'll be back... just not sure when

Rick